JUST FREAKING KIDDING! CHANGE OF PLANS…YET AGAIN!!!!!

WELL . . . I should’ve expected this. I SOOOOO should have expected this. 

S’ graduation date has been changed YET AGAIN. And we won’t get to go. 

Apparently, they (his flight) all got together and decided that they wanted to graduate early, and my guy was the only one who really had a problem with it. Of course, they’re not going to keep the date the same for one person, so they changed the date. He’s now graduating on June 12. Thaaaaaaat’s right . . . one day before we were supposed to go out there, he’ll be graduating. So here I am, letting my feelings be known. I know, “crybaby, crybaby”…but here it is anyway.

I’m livid. I’m ticked off for a few reasons, one of the top reasons being we don’t get our money back. So not ONLY do I not get to spend time w/his mama on a flight out there (and anyone who knows me knows how I love planes and flights and airports)… not ONLY do I not get to see him achieve what he’s been working for since March 11… not ONLY do I not get to get out of this blasted city from which I was looking for a vacation… not ONLY do I not get to spend lots of time with him in the car on the way back… not ONLY does he have to come back home the same way he went out there (ALONE)… not ONLY am I absolutely kicking myself for not insisting on flying Southwest… not ONLY will I not be able to get pictures of my boy graduating with honors…but we don’t get even a BIT of our money back. See? Pissed, I tell you. I work hard for that money, and it’s just wasted. Hours of work, down the drain. 

OK . . . good things . . .

~ he’s coming home earlier
~ he’ll be able to start (and subsequently finish) his month of active duty earlier hich means he can go back to his “day job” earlier
~ he’ll have more time to spend w/his brother before he goes to Latvia (mission/research trip)
~ we don’t have to spend money on gas/food/hotel/car while we’re (not) there
~ I don’t have to skip work (wait, why is this good?)
~ he’s coming home EARLIER
~ I don’t have to buy the really hot clothes I was wanting to buy- haha
~ did I mention he’s coming home earlier?  

So, yes… I am upset. I am mad. I am incredibly disappointed. I am actually not that shocked. (I knew- I KNEW- in my heart that something like this would happen. I just KNEW it.) I am out that money I (we) spent, and ticked off that I (we) won’t get any return on it whatsoever. I am frustrated. (I am beyond frustrated, truth be told.) 

However… I am patient. I am understanding (or so I say I am). I am obedient to God’s will and His timing. I am (going to be) content in the fact that His timing is not mine, His ways are not mine and His thoughts are not mine. I am (going to be) resting in His faithfulness and His peace, not drowning myself in the pit of sorrow and anger that I could be in at the very moment and up until the time he physically leaves Wichita Falls, Texas. I am thankful- grateful- that He is bringing my boy home 3 days earlier than expected and that I will see him on the same day I was going to see him, albeit later in the day and with less pictures. :) am relying on God’s reasoning and perfect will that there is a reason behind this. I am confident in the Lord to bring HIS plans to fruition through His obedient and less-than-perfect servant-children. I am praising HIS wondeful name and giving HIM the glory for bringing S through this and keeping him safe and healthy and uplifting him through this trial. 

I told S that the only thing I wanted for my birthday was him home, and I’m getting that.

So. There it is.